I am a girl who has lost herself,
lost herself in this very crewl world.
The anger runs down both of my checks.
The blood will flow out as I cry.
I don't want to hurt anyone,
and this is why I need help.
I screamed out to the world that I needed HELP
But i screamed those silent words so no one could hear me.
Not even our god could hear my crys tonight.
I let myself go, I gave up on this crewl world.

With these scars

With each cut,
the pain dripped away.
Its my freedom from my past.

I no longer feel like a coward
Fucking up on everything with every breath I breathe

But some days I want to stop
Feeling like everything's wrong
Trying to let go of the blade
Sometimes I can but not for long

 It’s like I'm addicted to the pain
The feeling taking refuge in my veins
Leaving me feeling confused and alone
Wiping at the streaked tears that seem to be stained

The scars shall never fad

there there for a reminder.

The past lays on my skin

it stays there for me to look at.

 

With out a word

Why did you go without a word,
what happened to the one i once knew
to the one that was full of joy.

Something happened
something just went wrong
No ones smiling anymore.

The world misses you
the world doesn't understand
but how could we understand the pain you felt

Time ran out for help
it was just a little to late
the weight of this world just was too much
and i am sorry
I am sorry i was not there for.
I never thought a deed could have been done
by someone with a smile as bright as yours

Silenced

With these tear stained eyes
I speak the truth
I speak of my true self
With old scars, and new
I stand here sharing my LIFE

I hide my true self behind my smile
A meaningful smile has not come out for awhile
There is an answer out there somewhere
an answer i just cannot find
There is a struggle i fight
A struggle that just keeps knocking be back down
So far down, im never sure if i'll be able to pick myself back up

I seeked out help from the lord
but it seemed my crys out for help were silenced
So i gave up on our god

I did not understand
how he could put this pain and suffing
in a child so young.

From a very young age
I knew the meaning of hurt,
I knew what if felt like to be loved in the wrong way

I was a mess
A complete mess
that i couldnt pick myself up
I just lost all hope in myself
living with no true dreams.

With a sharp blade i made myself feel alive
With this damn sharp blade i let the pain flow out
These scars reminded me of the past
the past that i could never forget

I let these tears fall
I let the tears i never showed
fall from my already beaten face
never before has one seen such tears
These tears were real
These were tears of pain and suffereing

I struggle to make it through the day
Because my life is falling through
The lord gives me another day to live
but its another day wasted away

I remember the days
the days that lasted to long
the days i wish i'd take my last breath
the day i held that damn gun to my head

I pulled that trigger
and my life changed forever

For a moment

Just stop for a moment
listen to the words that come from the heart.
Can you feel that?
Yeah thats true pain.
and yet you could never fully understand
(no you could never understand)
I need to take it back in time,
yeah take it back in time.
I've been roaming around
and I can't find my way back
I have lost my way in this world.
My body is here
but my mind has lost all control.